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June 30, 2007

THE QUEEN'S LAST NIGHT

Okay, so I'm not the first to note there's a potful of gold to be made by the first person who discovers a way to bottle the enthusiasm, vitality and energy of youth. But what I've realized the past few weeks is that while it may be impossible to reclaim the pizzazz of a twenty-year old, the next best thing is to get to hang out with a bunch of them. At least if they're like the talented, thoughtful, funny and highly motivated actors and technicians in this year's company at the Monomoy Theatre in Chatham.

Alan Rust is the Theatre's Artistic Director and back in May when he asked if I would consider taking a role in the opening production of MY FAIR LADY, I didn't hesitate for a nano-second. Although it's been 27 years since I acted at the Monomoy, the idea of being part of the Theatre's 50th Anniversary Season and of working with the show's director, my old pal, MichaelJohn McGann, were all the incentives I needed. Before you could say "Pick up your script. Rehearsals start on Monday," I was on board. Not that I needed much of a script for my cameo as the Queen of Transylvania. I have one line. Actually, one word: "Charming." Though I do get to say it twice. With an accent worthy of Zsa Zsa Gabor.

New York equity actors Holly Holcomb and Terry Caza are stunning as the leads. Ditto Rust as Alfred E. Doolittle and Richard Mangan, on from England this summer to act and direct, as Pickering. The rest of the company are twenty-something acting students, all possessed of equal measures of ebullience, talent and charm. (Although the Theatre is the summer home of the Ohio University Players, founded 50 years ago by Elizabeth Baker, the wife of then President John Baker, students audition at colleges around the country.)

It's been a joy to be with them - back stage and on stage - and worth the late nights and lost sleep. Every minute.

Tonight's my last night as a queen. At eleven PM I hand in my tiara. It's been a terrific two-week run.

June 23, 2007

LANGUAGE

Author Julia Cameron writes that as youngsters, “Every word we learn is a new acquisition, a bit of gold that makes us richer.”

My first treasure trove of language was the bright yellow and green 64 count Crayola Crayon box that afforded me my first glimpse at the possibility and poetry of words.

Maize. Burnt Sienna. Sepia. Turquoise green.

The allure of the waxy colors was secondary to the seductive pull of the names block printed on the paper sleeves, perhaps the first real indication I was destined to create with language not paint or clay.
Mahogany: The architecture of the letters, an entire poem unto themselves. The rise of the “h” and dips of the “g” and “y,” the round symmetry of the vowels.

Periwinkle: A cheerful word, with its twinkle rhyme.

Raw Umber: So somber sounding, with the unexpected juxtaposition of the “u” and “m.”

Violet: Old-fashioned, evoking emotions I couldn’t begin to identify.

These exotic words lay foreign on my tongue, offering a glimpse into possibilities far beyond those presented in my grammar school primers, texts that did the job but left out the enchantment. As youngsters, our world can be narrowly circumscribed and to this day I find it astounding that a corporation creating a product aimed primarily at the young had the vision to enrich not only a child’s eyes with color, but also her imagination with a palette of words.

Poetry reaches us from unexpected places. At church on Sundays, I was mesmerized almost to distraction by the reading of the scriptures. Often, by the end of the sermon, my head was heavy, drunk with the poetry of the psalms. The King James Bible, as Robert Olen Butler once wrote, is “the Mother lode of our language. ( I am still saddened by modern translations, which, in an attempt to make the stories accessible, rid the verses of their richness, and think we are the poorer for it.)

As my education progressed, I learned that every word had its own family tree and its own history that traced back to ancient lands and times and that the lineage of words even had a name. When I first learned it, I used to whisper it to myself in the dark, as if it were a magic mantra. Etymology. Abracadabra.

My grandfather, co-author of an English textbook, was a word man. He told me that everything on this earth and in the universe had a word ascribed to it, even the “&” symbol on the top row of his Royal keyboard. Naming brought poetry to the most common things. Ampersand. Hedgehog. Banjo. Ten-penny nail.

And of course I learned that, as with all things of power, words could hurt as well. Like many children confronting schoolyard cruelty, I was told that “Sticks and stones may break your bones, but words will never hurt you.” Untrue. I understood even then that words have the potential to do great damage, scarring us in places lesser weapons can not reach. I was schooled about the hard responsibility that comes with wielding words.
For a writer, language is the central tool of the craft, which explains why writers are so drawn to words, so awed by their strength and diversity. Almost every writer I know keeps a notebook of words, collecting them as a sculptor might add yet one more chisel to an already overcrowded workbench. Author Bailey White said that discovering a new word is like falling in love. And like the right lover, the right word has the power to transport. The right word, Mark Twain wrote, is the author’s eternal quest, as different from the almost right word as lightening is from the lightning bug.

Language is essential to the human experience and it is the writer’s first allegiance. String words together and they tell stories. They build characters and countries, planets and worlds, arguments and connections. Words have power. They bring order to chaos, give form to thoughts and unleash feelings. They make visible the unseen. They breathe, burrow, whisper. They trumpet. They have their own rhythms and sing or march or hum across the page. Sometimes the sound of a word is more important that the sense of it.

Language can liberate us or create a prison. It can lift us up, fire our imagination, or throw us into despair. Words can surprise us. Sometimes, when I’m walking along the seashore near my home, a word or phrase will surface in my mind, a word so perfect it triggers an entire scene which I run home to capture before it fades.
Words enrich us. The poet Adrienne Rich has noted that “When we awaken to our own life, language is our ally.”

We free our lives with words.


June 15, 2007

INSPIRATION

Maybe there is nothing in the world to explain the world, but we try hard anyway. We try to define the illusive, mysterious quicksilver we call inspiration.

“God on the job,” says author/actor James McEachin, referring to both inspiration and the things that inspire us.

“Telephone poems,” a poet friend says, referring to the verses that come fully formed on awakening, as if in the night she received celestial dictation.

“The collective unconscious,” adds another friend, seeking answers in the teachings of Jung.

Eureka moments. Epiphanies. Flashes and fragments of insight. Revelatory dreams. These are the creative gifts that bring us to our knees in gratitude and wonderment, but by what mysterious process do they, seemingly unbidden, arrive? Where does inspiration spring from? How do we court it? Can we woo it?

The ancients believed in Muses and so do writers. How could we not? There is a strong element of the mystical in inspiration.

Theodore Roethke wept for joy when he completed his poem “The Dance,” and acknowledged that he had felt a Presence in the room helping him, an attendant spirit akin to the Greek daemon. Harriet Beecher Stowe believed “Uncle Tom’s Cabin,” was written by Another Hand.

Even writers working at the cusp of the twenty-first century acknowledge it. We write in the middle of a magic circle, said Ralph Ellison. August Wilson called it the “land of magic.”

Still, the question of divine inspiration tends to make writers edgy. Short story writer Craig Moody maintains the whole subject is taboo. “We’re skittish about the issue because it verges on the spiritual and metaphysical, or at least we’ve convinced ourselves it does,” he says. “What it really is is this: We’re afraid another writer might somehow steal our mojo. Or that we might jinx it by talking about it.” Writers, he maintains, are just as fascinated and perplexed as anyone about where ideas come from.

And as in awe of it.

People ask writers all the time where they get ideas and the truth is they come like gifts. If we are wise, we are open to receiving. Our minds soften their grip on reality and open to the imagination. Woolgathering, our grandmothers called it.

While reading the brand name on a box of Pasta della Nonna noodles Massachusetts writer Virginia Reiser absently-mindedly translated it from Italian. Pasta of the grandmother. From this came the impetus for “Pasta della Nonna” the lovely story that won first prize in a CapeWomen magazine fiction contest, and which opens, “Eat, eat,” my Nonna said. “You are like cappellini – too thin to hold a sauce.”

Recently Reiser was in her car with her husband when, out of the ether, this question occurred to her: How did the Spirit of St. Louis get back to the United States since Lindbergh didn’t fly it? There was an immediate click of recognition. She held in her mind the first kernel of story.

Creative triggers surround us: A newspaper headline. The writings of another author. A tree branch that captures a shaft of light in a certain way. A snippet of overheard conversation. An inchworm’s flailing progress. A memory resurfaced. The first line of a story that arrives spontaneously and whole. Our part is to be open to them.

There are, I think, two keys which unlock the passage for inspiration: Play and Work.

Play liberates us from analytical thinking and frees the mind for ideas to enter. Imagination, after all, requires room. “I am an elaborate daydreamer,” says novelist Gloria Naylor, reminding us that muse is a verb, as well as a noun. To muse is to envision, to daydream, to call up creative imagination. The root of inspiration is inspire, to breathe in. The act of imagining breathes new life into our labor.

A commitment to work is the other component. In that way it is like the story of the man who prayed to God every morning to win the lottery. Month after month, year after year, he fervently prayed to hit it big. When he died, he confronted God and asked why, since he had been faithful in his prayers, God had not granted them. Responded the Lord, “You might at least have purchased a ticket.” We can pray for inspiration, but the moment of recognition comes because we have been preparing for it and it can only come when we are primed. Work, like play, serves to open the channels.

I know I am most likely to receive an inspired thought when I have been writing regularly and so I regard my daily stint of work as a form of cloud seeding, as if the act of writing itself produces ideas. Creativity is a journey, a friend once said. We have to visit the right places on the way and a path of industry leads us to these right places.

I think, too, that the spirit of creative thought resides not only “out there” but inside us as well. Sir Philip Sidney wrote, “’Fool,” said my muse to me. ‘Look in thy heart and create.’”

“In thy heart.” So perhaps, the secret of inspiration is that, like most good things, it is born of passion and love.

June 10, 2007

Celebrating Life

Every now and then I hear a story that breaks my heart and then mends it.

I recently heard from a woman, a reporter who had interviewed me many years ago. She wrote about what has happened in her life in the years since our paths had crossed and mentioned substance abuse, suicide, cancer.

I emailed back telling her how often Hillary and I reflect that no one escapes grief and loss and no matter how a life appears from the outside, it always contains some measure of loss and heartbreak. No one escapes. I shared that my sister and Hillary’s nephew both had committee suicide.

In her next email she told me more of her story. She wrote about a daughter - frequently institutionalized - and the horrific cost of substance abuse on a family. She told me that she and her husband had adopted their young grandchildren and said her husband is currently in treatment for cancer. Then she wrote that her son had committed suicide. “How does a mother ever recover from that?” she asked.

But here is the part of her letter that struck me like a lightning bolt to the heart.

“I still make quilts,” she wrote. “And enjoy eating popcorn out of a wonderful red bowl while watching movies with my grandchildren. I plant flowers. God is still good.”

This is a woman tested by the fires of unimaginable loss and still she finds the courage to continue, has the grace to find forgiveness and the ability to remain grateful for life’s simplest pleasures. A red bowl. A bed of flowers. The stitching of a quilt.

In the Edgar Lee Masters play, Spoon River Anthology, there is a line by a character named Lucinda Matlock. “It takes life to love life,” she says.

The former reporter’s letter reminded me of Masters’s line and how he recognized the courage required to celebrate life in all its riches and pain.

"It takes life to love life."

And it does. And it does.